absconding
Jotted down on 20 January 2006 08:39 with 5 Responded
a friend asked me this two days ago :
how do you usually re-charge yourself?
hmm.
the first thing that popped up in my mind was run away.
yes. run away.
from people. from the usual me. or errr the unusual me?
like the last recharging session, i, out of the blue, found myself alone in a hotel room in a city far away from where i live. alone. away from everything. even from the usual nana who is a personal assistant, a daughter, a part of the society, a friend bla bla bla. just nana. by her own. with her mind.
being alone somehow always give me some space and time to talk to myself. doubting. questioning. answering. intimidating. thinking. revisiting. rethinking. cheering. anything. until i feel that i am recharged. gather all my thoughts and my beliefs (which at times i just stop believing in, due to several errr...shits)
but i realized earlier today, that i do have another approach to recharge myself.
talking to a person whom i believe in and somehow believe in me.
share my sorrow, anguish, pain, sadness, fear, worry, rage, emotion without further fear that i will be judged, laughed at or mocked.
and for me to hear insights, remarks, comments, cheers. but of course not only encouraging words for i also appreciate the doubts, the questions *hell yes!* and the laughs.
i will know then that i actually do not really need to spoil my emotion too much. i have to regain my energy. my optimism. strive to live.
sounds easy to talk about? i know.
you can try at least. go for people that believe in you. use their support to make you feel worthy. to make you recharged to go on with life. with full energy. well by doing that at least you won't be letting them down, no?
or errrrrr........... at least try retail therapy. see if it works :p *this is of course mind leap haha*
so, which one is it for you? or you have other approach you'd like to share with me?
......there i leave all that i loathe
escape before the day breaks
that holy dream, that holy dream
while the world were all chiding
cheered me as a lovely beam
a lonely spirit guiding
spirit guiding .....
absconding, daughter darling
Posted at 20 January 2006 09:05
huehuehue..recharge my self ?
macem2 na.. bisa jadi tiba2 gw menemukan diri gw lagi nonton ndirian di bioskop, atau tiba2 pulang dengan nenteng tas2 blanjaan.. atau.. yah, doing sumthing different, misal klo gw paling benci pake baju pink...tiba2 gw nongol dengan kaos pink nge jreng jreng.. atau seharian gw berkutat di bengkel..kekeke..
bisa jadi, tanpa ba bi bu gw pulang kampung..
eh, tapi ada cara baru untuk recharge my self.. yakni.. dengan cara..mencela-cela orang tercela.. kekekke... yg ini lumayan efektif, asal ga ketahuan orang yg kita cela.. ga caya? coba aja !! *tapi jangan cela gw!!!*
huehuheuhue..
we are not ever lasting supergirl, na.. and that's normal!! ;)