answer me!
got to learn that not everything is there to be understood.
i have once written that phrase in my sideblog out of my frustration when i have so many unanswered questions.
i am not sure if i asked too many questions, or asked them to wrong individuals, or asked those questions in inappropriate timing or else. well, regardless of all those facts, i was, yes, disturbed. i found myself spent days with lil sleep, wondering. marveling in various thoughts.
the phrase later on opened a new passage for me. an eye opening understanding. through various conversations that i had (or i have been having?) over that very phrase.
do we really need answer for every single question that we have?
have we ever thought where an answer will possibly bring us to?
well of course it is not about the what-time-is-it or what-did-you-have-for-lunch kind of questions. no.
i admitted that many times i focused too much on getting an answer without realizing that the very answer may lead me to another question and more and more. and that is in fact when i start to frustrate myself. either when i did not get an answer or when the answer was not like what i expected (it was a bit contradictive with what i have once written in my other playground where i wrote this. hohoho. easier said than done.)
so should i stop asking? wait a minute!
a comment that a friend wrote in my blog also tickled me, not knowing is better. really? how come i do not buy that idea? people say curiosity kills a cat. hohoho. what should i do? what should i do? stop questioning for the sake of comfort zone? to avoid hardship, downfall and stuff?
i decided to keep on asking questions. but this time i do not mind getting questions in oppose to answers to my questions. for many times those questions that i receive bring me to some novel untested grounds. to areas i am not aware of or too afraid to admit before. surely enriching my horizon, i should be grateful, no?
so no frustration any longer? hohohoho not quite. for frankly sometimes i also want a straight answer. and yep it takes courage and acceptance to accept answers which are not always finely tuned music in our ears.
hey, once you opened a pandora box, no turning back. you just got to enjoy the consequences. if you are not ready, just let go of them. easier said than done? sadly say, yes. but life is not at all about ease, no?
oh my, what i have been doing with all these craps? hahaha….
good day everyone. today is the day. to be the possible best version of ourselves.
special thanks to 'ka, your comment has reminded me of my previous post and .... mind wanderer, why not?
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no prob, dear ;) i used to have my mind wandering like you... so many questions in my head but no answers. it did frustrate me. sometimes i insisted to know. and yes, i did find the answers. sometimes i felt relieve, but sometimes i wished i never knew. as time goes by, slowly i learn to ease my mind.
you're still young, girl. there're still more ahead of you. don't worry a thing. it's completely normal to have all those questions in your head now, that means you're an intellectual person. and do not stop. however, sometimes, it's better to know all the answers later, when the time is right ;) 'cuz trust me, slowly but sure, along with time goes by and your experiences, you'll find the answers of your questions 1 by 1.
hope it helps and you can sleep better now ;)
you are rite about it is better to know the answers later when time is right, sometimes some answers just drive me crazy for being unable to swallow em easily :D thanks for the encouragement, and no i hope i will never cease asking questions, well for the time being i receive more and more questions for my questions hihihi. my *grin*
i'm the kind of person who gets disturbed by unanswered questions, unreasonable statements and/or situation (unless those related to spiritual thingies), and illogical explanations, or -- worse yet -- inexplicabilities! that applies to almost anything, from movie storylines to relationship, hehehe...
hohohohoho... that makes two of us eda! *wink*
tanya dibalas tanya? satu pertanyaan, membawa ke pertanyaan berikutnya, dimana pertanyaan berikutnya adalah jawaban dari tanya sebelumnya, begituuuu terusss..
nah, tambah mumet khan? hehehehe..
jadi kenapa hari ini gw malaasss sekali??? *is it sumthing to be understood?* hihihihi